I have imported my blog posts from the days of Multiply and I also post my writings from my Weight Watchers blog. I hope to inspire someone and I hope to continually inspire myself.
I welcome your comments.
Excuse the language in the older posts, I have evolved....some, LOL.
This is how I got my praise on in this morning's traffic
Willing To Follow You
chorus) as your spirit is leading i'm willing to follow cause you give peace like a river and a joy that overflows it's total chaos when i'm led by me so my mind is made up and i'm willing to follow you
(verse 1) what is it lord that you need from me? and which direction should i move my feet? should i go left, should i go right, or should i stay (stay right here) cause my own power i just cannot count on cause every time i try to it gets me in trouble, hey life gets real crazy when i do it all my way, yeah
(channel) so i acknowledge you in all that i do my own understanding i could never lean on i know that my direction should come from you cause it's to you that i belong
(verse 2) i counted up the cost it's more that fair even fright down to the cross that i must bear you gave your life for me so i'll give mine for you without your power i just would not make it all of my life struggles wouldn't be able to take it, yeah my desire is to please you, to be more and more
(channel)
(vamp) lord i'm yielding and it's to your will do you want me to move forward or stand still to reveal your glory on earth is my passion lord my heart is willing willing to follow lord i'm yielding to you patient wait or to move my heart is open and it's willing to follow
Now back to lying... Big lies, little lies, white lies, lies of omission and half truths...they’re all the same to me.
I have to be honest, in grade school I lied alot because I wanted to fit in. I pretty much stopped by high school, mostly because there’s nothing worse than getting caught in a lie because, and I quote Mona’s response to the previous post “I have lied before and had to look like a damn fool because of it.
Now I try my damndest not to lie because once you get seen as a liar and ppl note you as they..thats a hard category to come out of....the title of liar will cling to you for a long time”
Now that’s not to say that I only tell the truth now because there are cases when I don’t think someone can handle the truth or I really want to spare their feelings. I still feel bad about it though.
With that said, liars really get under my skin.
Even worse, liars who after they’re caught in the lie, still won’t own up to it. I’ve gotten to the point that when something is awry at home, I don’t even ask about it because if I do, I’ll only get the half of the story that makes the teller favorable or the standard ‘Ida know’.
Then I have one literal mufukka under my roof that realllllly pisses me off. If you don’t ask a question or make a comment EXACTLY how you mean it...for example:
Me: Did you go to bed at 8:30 like I told you to? Him: Yes Me: Then why is the tv on at 11:30 and you’re eyes wide open? Him: You didn’t tell me to go to sleep, you just said go to bed. Me: *thinking to myself, Lord, PLEASE help me not to knock the flying snot outta this child* CARRY YOUR ASS TO BED AND FALL THE FUCK ASLEEP!!!
Now I get this almost daily on some level and oft it’s ended with someone getting popped in the mouth because I can’t stand a smartass either.
Now the liars who don’t own up to it even though their shit has blown up in their face? I have no tolerance for.
Case in point, my co-worker took it upon herself to tell the rest of our staff and the second floor (another office) that I’m on dialysis. Believe it or not, even though I’ve told all of you, there are many in my day to day life that don’t know, mainly because it’s none of their business.
So when they all started calling me and offering sad sentiments I was like WTF? How do you even know? Three people told me the same thing. E... It took me 4 days to calm down enough to confront her.
She came downstairs to see how I was feeling:
E: Do you feel ok? You should go home. Me: I feel fine. E: You’re awfully quiet. You haven’t said much in days. Me: That’s because I don’t want you telling my business. Why did you tell my business? E: Huh? Me: You heard me. Why’d you tell my business to the staff? I told the boss and that’s all I’m obligated to tell. E: I didn’t say anything to anyone. Me: Funny, 3 outta 7 people said you did. They all lied? E: Who said it? Me: It doesn’t matter, keep my shit outta your mouth. It’s my business and I’ll tell who I want. E: Oh, I think they saw a note on your desk about a doctor’s appointment. Me: Don’t say shit to me, about me or around me because I know for a fact that that note wasn’t specific and one of those people never even sat here. Now get out.
Bitch STILL hasn’t owned up to it.
What I don’t understand is why a grown ass man or woman feels the need to lie in the first place? Then try and turn it around like it's on you? BITCH PLEASE!!
I meant to talk about this earlier this week, but got sidetracked (is that not a cool picture?).
As you know, I work in a nursery part time and we have infants all the way up to 8 year olds. I have to say that the 3-5 year olds are the hardest to deal with.
Why? They're still being potty trained (well, some of them), they are stingy, they pout and they lie to get their way.
My co-worker's daughter is the majority of those things. I love her because she's blunt and honest to a fault, but she is also treated like an adult at home and sometimes doesn't know her place.
This week there was a little boy who was being a pest. If he were an adult, I'd call him an ass, but I have to assume he doesn't know any better yet. He was being very obnoxious and clingy. We're talking about a school-aged child. I finally told him if he wanted to continue acting that way then to go somewhere in the room where no one else was at and play by himself. He didn't want to. He wanted to hang up under my co-worker and whine.
I asked the co-worker's daughter if she'd like to have him for a brother and she said no, she'd smack him. Fast forward about an hour. The kids are playing (nicely) and the little boy has a toy that she wants. My co-worker is on the phone and not paying any attention and that's what the little girl is looking at, not me.
She snatches the toy and when the little boy tries to take it back, she smacks him in the face with a purse and knocks him down. I yell her name and tell her to help him up and apologize and she starts screaming that he was messing with her.
I repeated exactly what I saw happen, then she said he threw something at her. I said that it wasn't true and apologize. Then she said that he kicked her. Every lie she told, I came back with a truth until she finally went screaming to her mom to try and plead her case. Of course she didn't get in trouble and that's an injustice her mother will pay for sooner or later.
That came back to memory this morning as I thought about a co-worker at my other job that does the same thing. If you back her into a corner, so to speak, she keeps coming up with bigger and better lies to make herself look right until all you can do is look at her and shake your head.
I remember the last time I lied to my father. I was in high school. I was supposed to be somewhere, but was planning to use that as a cover and be someplace else. Before I walked out the door he told me "Be where you're supposed to be and do what you're supposed to be doing. I'm like shit in a cow pasture, by the time you see me, it'll be too late." Yeah, ok.
I went on with my plans. As I type this, maybe that was his way of telling me he was on to something, I don't know. Anyway, I went to where I wasn't supposed to go and I let my boyfriend at the time drive my dad's car (STUUUUUUUUPID move I now know) and he was smoking a cigarette in it.
We're just sitting in a parking lot, him smoking and me talking. He looks past me and says to me "What does that MF want?" I turn around and you KNOW who it was!
My lie had caught up with me. That was the last day I lied to him. I found that it's easier to face the truth and deal with it than to let the lies mount up until they stop adding up (and eventually they WILL stop adding up) and you look incredibly stupid to everyone who'd believed you up to that point.
Has a lie ever caught up with you or someone you know?
