Please excuse the lack of structure, I'm posting from the phone.
For several weeks now, I've been beating myself up over another failed relationship.
This morning I came to the realization that though I made more than a few mistakes, I gave the best I had to offer.
It is NOT my fault that I gave more than I got in return. It is NOT my fault things didn't turn out the way I expected.
It IS my fault, however, that I accepted some things in the very beginning, against my better judgement. I tried to work with the hand I chose to keep and in the end, it just wasn't worth my time or effort to keep playing.
I gambled. I lost a bit, I won a bit, just like at a casino. Instead of "pocketing" my winnings, I kept gambling and at the end of the day I went home with nothing.
The how's and why's I losty will probably never be answered to my satisfaction, but now I'm ok with that.
I have not and will not cry over my loss. I am satisfied that a real jackpot is in my future and I look forward to winning.
I have imported my blog posts from the days of Multiply and I also post my writings from my Weight Watchers blog. I hope to inspire someone and I hope to continually inspire myself. I welcome your comments. Excuse the language in the older posts, I have evolved....some, LOL.
AND THAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING RIGHT THERE!
ReplyDeletePriceless...love it...the best attitude! No matter how other people try to criticize your judgment, and they do, you have the best perspective. Keep and keep on moving.
ReplyDeletecan't say anything better than what's already been said...
ReplyDelete(((hugs)))
you were made from love and for love...
and when the time is right...
love will be!!!!
i totally believe this!!
ReplyDeleteAnd at the end of the day, that's all you can do, Dee. Take the time to love on you and the one for you will arrive in due season.
ReplyDeleteamen to that...
ReplyDelete*and on a personal note...a belief to which i hold fast & strong*
:-)
This is a wonderful post... I love the optimism! Keep your head up Sis!
ReplyDeleteI caint do nothin but *hug da shiznit outta you*
ReplyDelete*faints at the sight of texasshoney* thanks everyone! I have to either write about something or cry about it so I can get past it. All bullshit aside I do miss Rob's friendship as much as I try to deny it. * Le sigh*
ReplyDeleteI hope that after you take some healing time, you and Rob will be able to be friends again. Despite the relationship not working, your friendship always been strong. And anyone who has truly loved someone knows love never dies it just gets buried under a lot of feelings, memories and emotions or it evolves into something it was more meant to be. I love you both dearly and I wish you the best in life and love whether it be together or in separate relationships. <3 Paula
ReplyDeletePS if you need me call me. and thanks for the blackberry advice, i got mine yesterday
Yay on the Blackberry! And thanks Pauwa.
ReplyDeleteYoure welcome. I hate to see my friends hurting.
ReplyDeleteyeah maybe after you have healed, you can find a friend in him....that might be the treasure in it all and maybe not...do what's best for you.
ReplyDelete****hugs dee**** i'm glad you are seeing things more optimistic
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry. I never wanted things to end up this way. I will love you til the day God calls me home.
ReplyDeleteWhen you're ready to resume our friendship, I'm here.
I love you sis...
ReplyDeleteI love you too, even though I had to see who you were, LMAOB
ReplyDeleteCTFU!!!! *smh*
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