Only Me

Wouldn't you know it...another setback on the weight loss thing. Can't exercise much with a knee immobilizer. Will find out Friday how to remedy this. If that wasn't challenging enough, I ended up in the hospital week before last with Ischemic Colitis. I'm not back to 100% either. My welcome back to the job? Finding out that the Social Security break expired and another 2% will be coming out of my check from here on out. I'm afraid to leave the house today because it's icy, but I have to go to dialysis tonight. Joy. If there were ever a time to lean on God...

December 25, 2012

A very Merry Christmas from my family to yours! Remember that Christmas is the celebrations of our Savior's birth, no matter when He was actually born!

Well...

I weighed in and haven't lost anything. The good news is that I haven't gained anything either. Holiday time wasn't easy for me for a long time. I'd just get in a funk that lasted from about the week before Thanksgiving until just after Valentine's Day. I even went to my doctor before to get prescribed something. I was just sad all the time. I didn't want to be home, but I didn't want to go anywhere. I hated my job and most of the people I worked with at the time. I stopped taking my prescription because it made me crazy sleepy all the time. I decided a couple of years ago though, that I was going to beat this depression, without meds and I decided that God was going to be the one to help me. He was obligated. His word said that I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. And you know what? I did! I mean every once in awhile something takes hold of me, but that November to February mess? I haven't seen it for at least 3 years!

Checking In

Tuesday, December 04, 2012 I'm alive. As of yet, not gained (I'll weigh in tomorrow), having some emotional issues. Had my first Thanksgiving without my Dad and although I enjoyed my family time, I spent all day the following Saturday laying in bed. I know I'll get past this, but not right now. His birthday is coming up and I'm looking for a way to celebrate. Later...

Holiday Gain

Well, Thanksgiving has come and gone and I stepped on the scales at dialysis and the results are...........0 gain! I was mindful of portions and on Thanksgiving day I slept late, ate a small breakfast and used the rest of my points for dinner. My dessert portions were next to none and I was satisfied with that! Bring on Christmas!

My First Gain

I'm not even making a big deal about it, it was bound to happen... I gained .3 lbs. My challenge to lose weight is twice as hard, but I can do all things through Christ and so I will.

Sunday I didn't have a great treatment and left a couple of hours early, so I was unable to get all the fluid gain from the weekend off and last night I was so uncomfortable, that I got off 1/2 hour early, so I still had some of that fluid on. As tragic as it is (personally) to gain while losing, it's almost a guarantee at some point for the kidney patient. Thanksgiving dinner will probably put more fluid on because of the sodium intake on that day. I'm going to do the best I can to enjoy the foods I want, with minimal weight and fluid gain. I long for the days that I could flush it out with drinking copious amounts of water. Thank the Lord for your ability to do so.

What Will Tonight Bring?

Tonight is my weigh-in. Not sure how I will do this week. I mean I've stuck to eating within my limits, but last treatment I had some issues running and I didn't get all of my fluid gain off, so I'm going in with 1 kg from that treatment, plus whatever I've gained. *crossing fingers, toes and eyes* Well, maybe not eyes, but that's another story for another day.